I sat on the roof of the pack house. I have been sitting here since 10:45 pm. I was watching the moon. It's a full moon. It's so bright and beautiful. It feels like it's calling me.

I looked at the wristwatch.

11:59 pm.

1 minute. Just 1 minute left.

What if it didn't happen? My heart ached at the thought. It has been 5 years. And on every birthday, I sit here and watch the moon. Waiting for my shift which didn't happen 5 years ago.

Today is another day like that. My 15th birthday. My only wish is to be able to shift.  

My only wish.

I know that no one will celebrate this day with me. There will be no more surprise birthday parties I got 5 years ago. It all changed. Everything.

I'm the daughter of the Alpha. I'm the disgrace to the pack. I make this pack look weak.

Not anymore. Not anymore. May be.

I checked the time again. 10 seconds left. I closed my eyes. Scared. Nervous. Afraid.

I counted the seconds slowly.

9..8..7..6..5..

I felt my heart beat pick up.

4...3..2...

My breathing became shallow.

..1

I waited for my bones to break.

But... Nothing happened. No bone breaking.. Nothing.

That's when I realized that there is no hope. That I really am a disgrace. That the pack won't stop hating me.

And so, I decided to bring an end to it all. All of it.

I opened my eyes. I narrowed them with determination. This is for me and myself. I will set myself free. No one can rule me. I won't let just let anyone play me.

I jumped off the roof. Determined. I went to the garage and packed my clothes, I took the box grandma gave and wore them. Both of them.

The onyx one was shorter than the moonstone one.

I teared a paper from my notebook. I took my pen. I wrote on the paper.

'Goodbye'

I didn't write anything else. There was nothing to write, nothing to say. I doubt the pack will be sad if I leave.

My parents and siblings will probably throw a party and mark todays date on the calendar as their 'Independence Day; the Disgrace finally left'.

I stood up and threw the duffle bag over my shoulder before exiting. Then I ran towards the wood.

I ran all the way to the pack boarder. I saw warriors and guards on duty. I ran to the other side. Where there is no guards or warriors. You may ask how I knew that. I have known that since I was a kid. A 3 years old.

I ran into the clearing.

I looked back.

This is where I used to call home. White Ray Pack. Too bad, it's not my home anymore. In fact, it hasn't been my home since my 10th birthday.

This is where my parents live, this is where my siblings are. This is where my mate is training to become a better Alpha.

This is where my childhood lies.

And this will be where I bury my past. This is where I will leave my pathetic excuse of a life.

I turned to the boarder.

Once I cross this boarder, I won't be her. I won't be the pathetic excuse of a life. I will become someone else.

I may not have a wolf. But who cares? I have hope. I still have myself. I have made it this far. Which means then also I can.

I walked closer to the border. Just one step.

One step to freedom. One step for a new life. One step and bury the girl I am right now. One step away from my parents. Siblings. My mate.

My... Grandma.

Should I really do this? Can I leave the only person that cared about me? Loved me?

'You can. You have to!' I heard someone say. I looked around. There was no one. 'You have to, Sophia. This is for the better. This is for your future.' I heard it again. Whose there?

My.. Future? Do I.. have a future?

Yes, yes, I do. I will build my own future. And so, I faced the boarder once again. I sighed. This is for the better.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Without opening my eyes I took the step.

I took the step that changed my life.

Forever.